We creatures of consciousness

Throughout my fumbling, youthful adulthood I've adopted a rather cynical view of civilization. I've adopted a nihilist point of view in terms of social, economic and cultural ideologies. "Humanity has a single interest- that of the self. Greed, gluttony and capitalistic structures have crushed the freedom of the soul." These were things I've lived by. When arguing with proponents of capitalism, I usually hear two arguments.

"Well, what's the alternative? Anarchy? Communism? Totalitarianism?"

and

"God will return soon anyway" or some religious excusism that's allowed people to feel righteous and justified in their values and choices.

To the first, I say this: No. The alternative is a complete redesign of humankind. An understanding of just how little we understand, and reformation of our species' platform. This struggle for wealth, for object valuation, of professional and personal mutual masturbation should be restructured to the benefit of our kind. No more traded goods for wealth. No more obsession with crushing hurdles of life all based on some fantasy digits floating in the air around us or stored in electrical circuitry behind lock and key. If someone needs a house, those with knowledge of the trade build it. If space needs discovery, help supply the material to make it happen. Bend our minds to the expansion of our race scientifically, culturally, socially. Collapse the economic driven rat race. Break down the lines we draw on a map to seperate first world countries, third, fifth, second and all those above and in betweeen. Nationalistic pride, the tool of our self destruction, drives the climate to change, the people to hate, the mothers to mourn what's left.

And to the second- I am a God fearing man. But I will not bury my head in the sand I paint as courageous religious stands. I won't utilize the love I have for God and the love he has for me as a tool of reactionistic social pacifism. I won't allow my theologies to lead me toward inaction in some bent mentality that, at it's core, revolves around self righteous defeatism. Call it what it is- you're either ashamed of the choices you made and are making and don't want to admit it, or you're doing nothing under the guise of heavenly logic.

I know my words are but a drop in a very large bucket, and nothing will ever change, but if I said nothing at all, I myself would be fit to burst.